2 More Days Till Payday!

AAAAHHH!!
Just the thought of it helps keep me going for another day.
I have worked a shit load of hours (for me) and I have some major bills to pay so I am excited to pay them off.....or at least make a dent.
I still owe M****l and Lindyloo....I haven't forgotten.
Don't you just hate people that owe you money and never pay??!
I do, and I don't want to be her!

Anyway, I have a nice, I hope, day trip on Saturday to "NEW YORK" with my mom, Lindyloo, my godmother and uncle, M****l, along with my daughter and little squidge.
I hope its fun.
I do need a pair of sunglasses. Well, "need" is quite debateable.
I have a pair, I just hate them.

Everything on the homefront is just as always. Now that we have agreed on several major points, we actually get along better than before. Who da thunk it?

The job? Well, lets just say it's work.
We had a meeting yesterday on career development.
The new program is in 6 month increments.
I had a hard time paying attention because for the life of me, I couldn't wrap my brain around the possibility that I would still be there in 6 months.

Gosh! WOuldn't that be a let down.
I mean, it's a job that is certainly not for everyone. I know I can do it. With a little more confidence in the systems and in myself, I think I could be great at it. You have to be a tolerant personality. I am. You have to be able to listen. I can. You have to be able to take some bullshit from the too-common irate customer. I can...and have.
I just don't see myself doing this particular job. Indefinately. Will I try to move on to other departments, if possible?
Let me hear a 'Hell Yeah'!




PS.

HELLO SONIA
HELLO HEIDI

I'll be in touch. Love you guys!

Working Girl

I can't believe how much I'm working now!

What a change in lifestyle......

I'm keeping my own checking account, Yikes!
Trying to balance that is hard!

I was going to go to the grocery store....but I don't have enough money in my account. How pathetic! I'll have to wait to get some from J first.

Anyway, I'm rambling. Nothing of importance to say.

Still haven't had a chance to see much of little squidge.

Maybe I'll babysit for a bit on Thursday??

We will see. Hopefully I have something of interest to post next time.

I'M SO DAMN DEPRESSED

I just got my first paycheck WITH my medical insurance withheld.
I can't believe how little I'm getting after (2) weeks of work!
It really makes me want to crawl in a hole....especially since I could have used the medical a week earlier and didn't have any.

*Sigh*

I am very down and very grumpy...excuse this dreary entry today.
I have to get ready for work.

*GRRRR*

Where the hell did June go?

Well, I'm feeling MUCH better. I still have another 18 days of antibiotics....but at least the pain is gone. No complaints here. Until my ER bill arrives! Stay tuned if you like foul language.

I am almost back to my normal schedule. Lindyloo is still here with little squidge yet it seems like I have barely seen them.

I have a more pressing issue that I'm trying to work through at the moment.
The kids won't stop fighting and bickering. It's driving me crazy! They've always argued but this non-stop war among the three of them is literally driving me over the edge. I actually screamed at the top of my lungs just about an hour ago.
I didn't scream anything at all....just a loud shout. It did scare the hell out of them and kept them cowering in the other room in silence for a total of 4 minutes.
They've been back at it. I'm really at my wits end.

I've tried seperating them. Putting them in their own rooms. I took away the TV and video games. (Its way too nice out for that anyway). I've given them chores to keep them busy. Nothing works so long as they cross paths in some way.

Any ideas would be great. I'm ready to ship them back to my mom for a few days to save my sanity. However, I suspect that is what causes there lapse in obedience. They have much more free reign over there....they forget themselves when they come home. I don't tolerate the same shit here!

UPdates

Hello to anyone wondering where I have been.....
Let me start by stating that I have been diagnosed with Lyme disease.
Hip hip hooray. Damn ticks! I've been feeling miserable for the past week and suspected I had lyme because I knew the symptoms (too many people I know have had it or still have it) I tried to hold out until my insurance begins but if not for my kids, I would have thrown myself in front of a bus. I kid you not! I've been very irrational lately. I think its been a pain induced stupor. I left work early on Sunday. I had to take Monday of (with a dr.'s note). I have to go into work tonight. I have more than enough Vicadin for the pain. However, as with anything that goes wrong with me....it can always get worse. The antibiotics that I was prescribed made me projectile vomit. Both times that I took it. So, as of yet, I have not begun my meds, officially. The DR. called this morning and he told me STOP, he will fax over a new presciption. It appears I'm one of a few people who don't take kindly to that particular med. See?, it can always get worst.

Just to prove my point....if the above doesn't do it for you....wait until my emergency room visit bills come in. Yep.

As for the the cookout, I didn't hear about it until this past Saturday, I didn't think I was invited. No big deal, I had to work that evening.....and I was not very pleasant, since I'm still feeling sick. I hope to see you at the graduation party Mary! Hopefully I'll be feeling better by then. As a matter of fact. 7/7....I better be feeling better!

On a brighter note, I got a new car. Well, not exactly new. 2004 GM w/ 17,000 miles. That's as new as I'll ever get. I'm so broke right now. I'm looking for a job with more hours and better pay. I'm still waiting to see what my score was on my police exam......I no it's a shot in hell. I just hope I get a respectable score. Otherwise I'm not sharing it with anyone....Stupidity is embarrasing to me.

I've been so distracted with my health issues that I never dropped off anything for my dad on Father's day. I know, I'm terrible. I also never got anything for my husband on his birthday, which was Sunday. Terrible, again, I know. In my defense, I couldn't move. I was physically exhausted and couldn't drive unless absolutely necessary because of my intense headaches that have plagued me for days on end. I will make it up to them all today. Even though I still am feeling sick....it's not nearly so bad. I have some house chores to catch up on and some office work....then I'm all set to head out in this swealtering heat. I hope everyone is keeping cool and staying safe.....and remember those body checks for those pesky microscopic ticks!
Oh, before I go, I don't want to forget to thank M****l for her kindness. (She helped me with my precriptions....since I have no insurance) She is full of goodness! Remember that M**t ;)

How can I stop time?

I really need to know. I've been saying that I'll post pictures but I just don't have time. Really. It's not like I have some time but I'm too tired or I have a few minutes but I choose to read a book....Wait a minute....Read? A book? OK, I did just say that. Wishful thinking I suppose. However, I honestly have no time right now. I'm always exhausted. I keep dozing off in front of the screen. I just brewed myself some coffee. I don't normally drink that poison but it's beginning to work on me. I just managed to email my cousin Sonia in CA...still waiting for the visit to the US. *hint* *hint* I'm going to have to call N & E to arrange something for this fall??

Anway, I still owe Heidi an email. I want to check out the site to see if there are any updated photos of the new baby.

I'm a liitle depressed lately and I'm afraid I may be picking up a bad habit to self-medicate myself. Shoes. That's all I'm gonna say, ladies. I (again) will post photos of the newest members of my closet. I think we'll be happy. Until I need my next fix.

Okay, I've had some really nice customers and even some really funny conversations with customers at my new JOB...this is an announcement for all the rude people who called customer service the past few days: Please stop yelling at me. It won't make me type any faster. Really, play nice. Or, I may have to hit the FU button...and we don't want that to happen.

On another note, Today is also the last day of school for the kids. Yahoo! Nothing scheduled for the kids this summer! Can you sense my relief? I almost signed them up for some activities...(I love punishment). But I listened to better judgement....my sanity is saved, for now.

This post is a rambling of incoherent thoughts...no time to edit....so please excuse me....especially if I've mispelled every other word.

See you soon Lindyloo....if I can find the time.... :(

Chaperone

On Tuesday, I chaperoned a middle school field trip in Plymouth. It was a whale watch. My first time so I was fascinated. There were sooo many whales, more than they typicallly see, according to the tour guide. It was pretty cool. I have a bunch of pictures. Hopefully I can post some soon. I did however freeze my ass off. I honestly couldn't feel it. Really, it was that cold. J LOVED it! He thought it was really cool to see them feeding and flapping their tails.

On another note, I began taking calls on my own on Tuesday. (With help from advisors walking around.) Let me just say, I am clueless! Six weeks of training?? What? Where? I feel like I've never been trained on any of it. Not much information from those 6 weeks have actually been absorbed by my rock of a brain.


Speaking of rocks....marriage life is still rocky.

I also just signed up for medical insurance....first time we'll have any in years. Yay! However, it costs about half my paycheck. No exageration! (that doesn't look to be spelled right, but I'm too lazy to edit), so moving on.....

Softball and T-ball are both over now. No more bothering my mommy. And believe me when I say "bothering". As she is keen to remind me of. Personally I would tell her where to go, but its for the kids sake that I ask for help. Always for the kids. Now she says she won't be doing any more of it....so I better not sign them up for anything else next year because as she pointed out..."It was your choice to move so far away from me" Wonderful. I won't be signing them up for anything; which is going to devastate them when they hear, but unless I can get a change in hours, or their dad steps up and makes that a priority (fat chance), it won't be happening. I'm just taking things one day at a time. We'll see how it all goes. Can't wait for the trip to water country and squidge's arrival next week. The house is a buzz about the upcoming arrivals. I still can't believe it's almost been one year! Where has the time gone?

Sunday mornings....

Okay, just a quick note....

I was awakened early this morning by little T, which is from this moment on going to represent little

Terror

instead of his first initial. It seems he had clogged the upstairs toilet. Yay! What a way to wake up! I hope this isn't a sign of things to come this week.


I...will...think...positive...thoughts

Midnight....and I should be asleep

I'm not, so I decided to think of some interesting facts about myself. So here is me in all my weirdness!

1. My hair was once long enough to touch my knees (I just shuttered at the memory)

2. I don't get seasick, however, I can't swing on a swing...I usually get sick when attempting to swing at the playground. (Seriously. Don't laugh. It's upsetting, since I used to love it as a little child. Now that I'm thinking of it. I've been suffering of this since grade school. Weird.)

3. On a similar note, I occasionally get a weird vertigo-like feeling when sitting in the pasenger seat of a vehicle. (I know you're thinking straight jacket)

4. I'm extremely indecisive. Not sure what else to say about this.

5. I often try to fit in "one more thing"...and of course, make myself late. (Now everyone knows why I'm always late)

6. I often snort when I laugh. (This often makes me laugh harder which causes me to tinkle...heehee...see Lindyloo

7. I am a pessimist by nature, but often disguise it by saying optimistic things. (Don't let me fool you)

8. I'm a wonderful daydreamer.
I sometimes find myself staring blankly at my monitor, or worse yet,
I wonder how on earth I drove & arrived @ my destination in one piece (this happens more often than I'd like to admit)


God, I'm a weirdo! I could go on...and on...and on...and on...Not very interesting, but definately odd.

I'm Ba-aaak!

Oh my goodness, I just got an update on squidgyboo....then I decided to wander over to my little piece of the blogging world to see if anyone left any comments....perhaps noticed my absence. Nope. However, Princess Di did mention my lack of updates on Sunday.
First of all, Squidge must have grown about an inch in the past two weeks....or at least her hair has.
Next, Groa had a baby boy!! I can't wait to check out the blog, Heidi...Thanks.
I'll even get to brush up on my Icelandic. Fartha Haim! (I know that is spelled incorrectly, but you get it, I'm sure)
I'm sooo excited to hear from everyone, really. I'm excited....how pathetic I am. In my defense, not much excitement comes my way these days. Unless little T counts.
oh, and camikaos ....I too thought T had a unique, if not twisted mind.... Comforting to know I'm not the only one raising a devilish manipulative imaginative child.

On a personal note, I did have my first mental breakdown on Friday. I was soooo stressed out, too much pressure, hungry, sleep deprived....who knows why...but I broke down on the phone with Verizon tech support. Damn bastards made my life here at work misery last week!

Anyhoo, I've recoved pretty well, all things considered. I have only one more week of classroom training before I get thrown on the phones next week. No!!!!! I'm NOT ready. I did take calls last night with an agent doing the typing.....it went well....as long as I repeated word-for-word what she was whispering to me!
I don't know if I'll be able to handle this job. My brain has never needed to function at such high efficiency. (3 kids....stay-at-home mom for over 10 years) I believe I may have lost a portion of my brain....and I can't get it back!


Oh and I am still going to post some interesting facts about me soon. So far, I've only come up with two. Sad. I know. Maybe, weird counts? Cause I got loads of those! Thanks, I think...to Lindyloo and Jennifer

The bigger I get, The badder I will be

...After a little discussion regarding T's behavior and reminding him that he has to be good because he will be in the "big kid" school in September...

The bigger I get, The badder I will be

That is what 6 year old T said to me a few minutes ago before stepping on the bus. What!!?? I asked. He proceeded to explain to me that big kids are bad, and that he will also get more bad when he turns 7. Wonderful. He's made a concsious decision. What did I expect from a child who's excuse for doing bad things, like drawing (with pen) all over the leather arm rest in the back seat of the car, using a sharpie to draw pictures on the bricks on the fireplace, and regularly taking that same sharpie to draw alien symbols pictures all over his stomach and legs is to say
"my brain told me to do it"

Where has May gone?

I can't believe June is right around the corner. It's amazing to me how time flies! I've already completed (2) weeks of torture training. I am anxious to get on with my regular schedule...however, I have 4 more weeks of training!!
I wish I had pictures to post but I haven't so much as picked up my camera....so unlike me, I know. We've also completed our move out of the main office and are back at the home office. Yahoo! This will be much easier for me. It would be nice to sit in the sun. The weather looks wonderful from my office window. *sigh*

Lazy days and mosquito bites

Okay, let me start by saying:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINDYLOO!!!

Happy Mother's Day to everyone!!
...especially to Madrinha, Vavo Sara, titia Artemesia, and Princess Di....it appears I've been found out! Not to worry though, this is a clean blog...no talk of pusettas here! (For Now) ;o)

My wireless router has called it quits. Last time I logged on was Friday morning...I did manage to get a card out to Lindyloo before the rate hike. :)

After a hectic week, and a rather busy Saturday, I decided to take it easy on Sunday. After a beautiful Mother's Day mass, the final family mass for K in the childrens choir until September, We took the kids to the playground.
After arriving home and making lunch, I decided to spread out a blanket on the newly mowed lawn, and nap in the sun. Great idea, since I was still physically exhausted from the long days the previous week. However, it was a bit chilly when the wind blew, and somehow woke up with T and K laying next to me. Sweet, yes, but I couldn't savor the moment because I was scratching uncontrolably due to a GAZILLION mosquito bites! How? I sprayed the kids, myself, even the dog! How and why do they persist and continue to get me?!!?!

It doesn't help that I will be getting little sleep, as usual after attacks like these, because I'm always paranoid of EEE and the West Nile....which seems to be prevalent here.

Mom is back from Canada today, I believe. I will be visiting her before going to work...not with the kids, unfortunately.

Well, here goes another week!

work, work, work

I can't believe I've gone from NOT working for 12 years to working two jobs in such a short time. I've only been at it for one week. Already I'm feeling the strain. Have I been too pampered? Things are all changing for me at once. It's a bit overwhelming but change could be a good thing, so I'm told. Things on the home front aren't getting any smoother. We are both getting really close to calling it quits. He's sick of me. I'm sick of him. YadaYadaYada.
Anyway, some members of the family still laugh when they hear that I'm working so much. Why? What is so funny, I wonder? I'm more determined to kick ass at work, and NOT have a mental break down just to spite all the nay sayers.
I can do this. As long as I say that to myself. I can do this.
I hope.

So much to do....So little time

Well, a lot has happened since Sunday.
Let me start by saying I took my second exam in Boston on Monday and I choked. Yep, flunked. I'm embarrassed to state that but its the truth. It was sooo easy too. I just couldn't get over the pressure. Everytime the phone rang, my mind just went to mush. When I hung up the call....well, back came the brain function. Along with a few curses at myself. I knew exactly what I did wrong on every call. I even took notes to remind myself. But Alas, it was NOT meant to be.
Anyhoo, I did start training on Monday afternoon for the job I DID get. Silly, this job is 10X more demanding than the one I flunked at. Go figure. Its going to be very difficult to hold down both this job and my old one at the same time, still get the kids off to school in the morning and keep up with some chores. I'm really anxious to leave by about 8:30 PM, so 10 PM comes on very slowly. It's a LOT of information to absorb in the next 6 weeks. I hope I can handle it. As A matter of fact, getting to work on time will be my most difficult challenge. I can already predict trouble. I'm sooo bad in that respect. Well, what will be will be, so they say.
I am going to follow through with the polic exam that I signed up for and PAID for after a big fight with big J.
My mommy laughed when I told her the exam is in less than 2 weeks. What is so funny about me being a police officer??? Plenty of women do it.
I have three kids that I'm always mediating between. I already drive a grand marquis (which causes people to tense up and move the hell out of my way on the highway) - which is a good thing because I'm usually speeding from one thing or the other. Also, I grew up in NB....so I know the ways of the drug dealers, thieves, and thugs. Went to school with quite a few of them, matter of fact. So I think I stand just as good a chance as any other woman taking this exam. As long as I don't choke.

God Bless Gardners!

that's all I have to say. I cleared the perimeter of ONE tree yesterday in the front lawn to get ready for mulch and flowers....and if not for having the kids and chores to manage I'd be bed ridden this morning. I'm soooo sore. So pathetic. So very out of shape.

Lindyloo? Wallywoo?

Hey, I think you may have something wrong with your telephone. I tried calling a few times and you all are picking up but you can't hear me. I on the other hand can hear you clearly. Call me.

Cheers

EDIT: Stupid me...I think, after another attempt, that you guys have a very weird message on your machine. That's why you can't hear me! Duh! I feel like a fool. You need to work on that message....or maybe I'm the only one that hasn't got a clue. (You know I'm easily confused!) :)

Sorry about the last post

It came on the heels of a stressful day. I just read it and it seems pretty harsh. I still think those women are b****'s .....I'm sorry,forgive me. You think maybe I'm a b****? Uh oh. Not sure if I should ask that.

Inconsiderate Moms

I had the misfortune to witness several inconsiderate moms at K's school musical. First of all, let me say that I don't mind the moms who let the little ones run up and down the isles, who let kids talk way too load to eachother, or allow infants to cry at the top of their lungs for minutes on end...while hushing them ever so calmly. Nor do I mind the stinky diaper. Shit happens. Kids will be kids.

However, I will say this,
Saving EIGHT of the very best seats in the autitorium, when only 5 of you show up...it's just NOT cool. Move your pathetic asses and jackets over so three other parents can enjoy the show! That's a bitch! Next, if a couple of seats ARE reserved with that old trusty jacket....please move on. DO NOT throw the jacket beside the woman in front of you and steal those seats. Thats a bitch! (Especially when I look guilty that woman now looks like the one who moved the jacket and stole the reserved seats!) The next offender isn't inconsiderate, (unless standing in front of a mom at a softball field on Monday...AGAIN, while that mom is trying to watch the game...AGAIN is inconsiderate), just bothers the crap out of me in general. I mean, a bouquet of ROSES for a third grade musical performance! My Gooooshh! Get over it!

Shhhhhh!!!!!!

This blog MUST remain a secret. Otherwise big J will know what I've been doing instead of working! ; )


In all seriousness, I just arrived at the office from my exam. It was in Marlborough. Five people in the exam room and we all passed. While waiting for the results, I was actually daydreaming of being told that my score was the highest they had EVER seen...and promptly escorted me to another floor where they begged me to come on board, great pay, and all the benefits included.... So I was a little disappointed to hear that we ALL made it.

Really, I'm just joking. I'm just relieved that I made it to the next round. Next it's off to Boston to complete the second half of the exam. Fun. Not really.

If you're confused let me know.